Your muscles need to be broken in order to regrow stronger - that's the gym is for.
Your scales need to be slower before they can be faster - that's what the metronome is for.
You need to practice coaching before you can be a coach - that's what mentoring is for.
You need to work on yourself so that you can model good behavior to a kid - that's what your time is for.
Development and growth come from practice.
If you stick with it, your practice will give you results.
Stick with it.