Thermodynamic systems seek equilibrium in the amount of heat allowed in the system. As more heat enters, the system outputs excess heat thereby achieving balance .

Every new bit of knowledge I get is like a marginal unit of heat entering the thermodynamic system that is my life. The drive to seek equilibrium by applying what I’m learning and experiencing more of the world is high. I become anxious operating at the margin.

I read, I think, I write, and my mind simply wants to go off and see the things I read about. I want to make something or collect an experience that would allow me to bring my system into an equilibrium.

Writing this post to you helps — I imagine you’ve been in a similar situation before. Taking a walk helps. Making food from scratch — that helps.

Breathing and realizing that the time I have right now is the time that matters. I can’t have my cake and eat it. I can’t experience and do all of the things my brain would like to do. No. I can only do what I can at this present moment — and what all I can do is write and share.