Thoughts from last night.

Thoughts from last night.

I've been having more headaches lately.  

I think that's because my blood sugar has been lower than usual.  
I think that's because I've been cutting sugars and carbs out of my life.  
I do this off and on. It's a way to combat my bipolar disorder - believe it or not.  

This post is not about diets.  
It's about self-awareness.

Some people may or may not understand this about bipolar disorder, but it seemingly robs you of your self-awareness. I suppose that makes sense when your mind is the thing that's running away with you.  

But, despite what the individual may "feel," you can still develop self-awareness.  

For me, that self-awareness comes in the form of high amounts of creativity.  

I am a creative individual by nature, and I don't think that's a curse. I'll never apologize for being that way. But, when I start to feel this surge of creativity, I've found some ways to cope:

  • Removing sugar and carbs helps. They help because reducing insulin resistance plays a significant role in improving mood disorders.  

  • Write down my ideas. I use a moleskin notebook and an EVO planner to write down my thoughts. Maybe I'll execute them in the future? Perhaps I won't.

  • Write down my feelings. I'll share what I wrote down last night at the end of this article.

  • Bake. Besides hiking, the best activity for slowing down my mind has been baking sourdough bread - the ultimate form of delayed gratification! (Note: I've cultivated a sourdough starter long before the pandemic; I'm not a bandwagoner.)

I'm writing this today because it's what's on my mind. But also, to let you know that the thing I think we're missing from culture, work, and communication is our humanity.  

Thoughts from last night:

I'm tired now.
Very focused.
Not tolerant of others (read: being disrupted).
My head, temples are sore.
I feel brain drained.
I'm not hungry.
But, 
I'm tired.

(I then enjoyed restful sleep.)
(And before anyone calls my family, I’m fine! But I love you, and thanks for thinking of me.)

Searching for inspiration.

Searching for inspiration.

Which way do you go when both seem right?

Which way do you go when both seem right?